2_crazy_2_care

So what...as long as I get the work done

2008-12-29T14:07:50Z

Okay, I'm a full-time alki and a part-time junkie. When it becomes anyone's problem, moi included, I'll be done with my diss by then.

so of course i am high

2008-12-28T12:02:49Z

A pain pill would be nice. Any kind right now.

A medication vacation....

Lavinia Fisher was hanged on February 18, 1820, wearing her white wedding gown. Just before hanging, she told the crowd: "If any of you have a message for the Devil, give it to me, for I am about to meet him!"

To be so bold and beautiful...

My silly Sassafras

2008-12-13T11:36:53Z

No, you should not name my niece/goddaughter "Sassafras." lol She's always soooo there for me, even though I'm an utter fuck up most days. I know that she's one of the few REAL friends I have. She's like family now, sort of like a big sister. I've never had a big sister. So, I'm, of course, snorting my fav-- and I can only laugh at her.

I am your real friend. I love you for you. Your real folks love you. We don't want your money. We just want your drugs, and by drugs, I mean...cocaine. We just want to have fun with you, and by fun, I mean, cocaine. LMAO

My bf has admitted the real reason he's been such an ass lately. He's afraid of relapse. I thought so. He's having a tough time, withdrawals and such. He wanted me to "just get rid of him" so he could go back to it. Fat chance. Not only do I love a challenge, I love him as well. Besides my best friend forever still owes me 72 more bucks....wink...wink

Man, I need some nexium.

i'm addicted to everything save work

2008-12-01T15:08:47Z

Why won't I work? Just wasting time getting high and drunk

are you serious?

2008-11-28T01:46:34Z

Your nose is clogged, your head slightly hurts, and your stomach feels a bit nauseated. Would you stop already, damn?!?

So a cockroach crawled through my coke...

2008-11-27T18:57:12Z

Of course that didn't stop me from snorting it. I mean, it prob was dirty anyways. Now if it had crawled through my food, that would be different because, food, you know, is probably clean, right. That's good reasoning. Well, Sass, Latina chick, and I will just have to be sure to intervene each other, if necessary one day. We are going to finish, and then worry about th rest -- yes all of the rest.

i love coke!

2008-08-26T13:38:22Z

It just keeps me elated, calm, and at ease, I keep a check on myself, just to ensure my livelihood. But it's a great feeling to be so euphoric.

hydroxyzine pam vs hcl?

2008-08-14T15:01:58Z

Does any know the difference if any between these two? What are the effects (good and bad) of taking this?

Fake shit or what?

2008-08-05T22:27:49Z

I hate when I get some coke and I'm like is this aspirin or some shit? Are you sure this is a ball? Fuck! But the real BS, I'm still tryin to get high. lol

Any Doctors or Hemotologists here?

2008-08-05T02:09:23Z

I have to give blood for several tests to confirm GERD, acid reflux, IBS, etc. Would general tests, e.g., glucose tests, potassium, calcium, etc., show cocaine? I mean, if they aren't even testing for that. I know they can "see" it, but do need do extensive tests to document it?

I'm probably worried about nothing.

Wishes upon wishes

2008-07-25T16:38:13Z

I didn't. I am rereading posts. I find these discussions interesting and stimulating. I am quite jealous of all of you. I keep stupidly entering into relationships with Vanilla men who are controlling, possessive, obsessive, insecure, jealous, and narrow-minded. Yes, it is due to my own underlying need for this insane love, so I am not placing the blame anywhere but scarely on my own shoulders. Maybe I like the fun of convincing them to come over to the dark side. lol Maybe I'm subconsciously inhibited and won't admit it to myself. So, when I stop intellectualizing, maybe I'll begin to have real fun, instead of vicariously living through truly liberated others like yourself.

slowing down the snort and liquid courage

2008-07-24T03:20:09Z

As much as I know he loves me, he is so unaware (especially after 6 beers, 2 joints, and other goodies). I’m so allowing myself to love mySelf. I may be a little depressed, but I’m not sad in every sense (pun intended). I’ll be here for him, as long as it’s good for BOTH of us. He’s learning and changing.

In need of more coke

2008-07-18T03:51:04Z

The honeymoon’s over. The devil reared his ugly head today. Surely, this isn’t the first time that satan has shown himself, but this time is was different. At first, I was thinking to myself, my man has become Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Clearly, I was wrong. You see; that is an actual dichotomy – a juxtaposition of two opposing forces. So, in an unfortunate way, that borderline personality-type actually makes since. His splitting has no rhyme or reason.

To be continued. And he sniffs my coke!

who knows shit

2008-07-12T19:29:01Z

A stranger was seated next to a little girl on the airplane when the
stranger turned to her and said, 'Let's talk. I've heard that flights
go quicker if you strike up a conversation with your fellow passenger.'

The little girl, who had just opened her book, closed it slowly and said
to the stranger, 'What would you like to talk about?'

'Oh, I don't know,' said the stranger. 'How about nuclear power?' and
he smiles.

'OK,' she said. 'That could be an interesting topic. But let me ask
you a question first. A horse, a cow, and a deer all eat the same
stuff - grass - . Yet a deer excretes little pellets, while a cow turns
out a flat patty, and a horse produces clumps of dried grass. Why do
you suppose that is?'

The stranger, visibly surprised by the little girl's intelligence,
thinks about it and says, 'Hmmm, I have no idea.'

To which the little girl replies, 'Do you really feel qualified to
discuss nuclear power when you don't know shit?

Are they certain they want me to finish their case?

2008-07-11T15:45:56Z

Okay, if you want me to fight my father's case for me, I am more than happy to do it. He IS my father, and I am your class, quintessential good daughter -- a perfect daddy's little girl, actually. But, help me out here! Could you watch my SUN? I am not going to keep telling him to come back later, later, later, tomorrow, etc.! It makes me feel like shit to do that. He IS, without a doubt, my FIRST priority. Please, don't make me tell you that you're on your own.

Fuck, why am I sober?

Between the bf and the baby, I'll never get anything done today!

just trifling

2008-07-08T16:32:12Z

Why is it that I can get my behind out of bed to run to computer to research very important issues like the Jerry Springer show but won't finish my dissertation?

Yes I really do love him, all of them

2008-07-08T02:25:49Z

This is going to seem so hypocritical that I cannot not believe I am actually going to put these words on a page. You know; I know; by now, the world knows I’m coping with the impending loss of my father, early menopause, lagging in the diss, fear of failing miserably, loneliness, despair, anguish – hell, I’m a fucking Sartre novel right now. I will not dare proclaim that my means of coping is healthy or even effective, but it’s getting me by. I’ve pretty much decided that this is a precarious time; however, it too shall pass. So, I absorb my happiness vicariously, especially through the contentment of my Sun/son. I NEED for him to have proximate ideal happiness, because, as crazy as this sounds, his happiness seems to be all that I have left in me at this moment. There is no joking about disappointing him, broken promises, or fucking with him in any shape, form, or fashion! Now, is soooo not the time! My ailing father needs to understand; I’m am willing to subsist in this realm of wane-wax vacillating abyss of Cloud 9 feigning to be my life. However, he has not and will never become the emulation of my illusive façade of power and vanity. Just because he’s my offspring doesn’t mean he has to be my replica.

Oh, and if only my selfish, intentionally blind bf would leave my SHIT alone! If you don’t like it anyway, why scoop up the last of it. All you do is go to sleep anyway when you get off work. So, why do you need to use up my shit when I am not interested in NONE of your vices. When my shit is gone, you still have yours. How fair is that!

vicadin expert, anyone?

2008-07-05T21:28:49Z

What's good to mix with vic to achieve ultimate euphoria?

need more dope

2008-07-03T01:01:48Z

I must admit; I am not happy with my relationship right now. I’m not sure if it’s me or him or us. I’m going through a lot; so, that could be it. I feel lonely and abandoned.

Not that George

2008-06-23T06:27:15Z

I'm quite affected by George Carlin's death. Hmmmm, yet antther excuse to get high.

Sara- the other white dope

2008-06-22T15:06:12Z

Such a snorter...I think I love the process, the chopping, the actual snorting....I just love to snort

The UN-Invention

2008-05-17T16:32:17Z

My best friend and I share a common love: we love watching Intervention on A&E. The best thing is to watch it drunk or high. We do not mean to belittle anyone's struggle to get sober -- we're all for not doing drugs when they're no longer fun or if you have a problem. We just really enjoy the show. However, we were thinking that there should really be an Intervention for drug dealers. We think that groups of concerned users should get together and confront their various dealers to encourage them to change their business relationships for the better. Here's what we've come up with so far:

Episode 1 - "Fictional Dope" Don't call, text, or email me to come get something that doesn't exist. If you don't have it in hand, don't contact me to take an order for something you don't have and won't be able to get. STFU and don't waste my time.

Episode 2 - "Timeliness" Are you picking the poppies/coca leaves or starting from scatch in a 8th-grade chemistry set? Does it really take half the night for you to go ten minutes away to pick up the stuff? Did you get lost? WTF?

Episode 3 - "One Stop Shopping" You should really consider diversifying for the sake of your customer base. If you sell weed, sell coke too. If you sell amphetamines, sell benzos too. Also keep some X and LSD around for good measure, along with some OCs and Vicodin. Your customers will thank you for it.

Episode 4 - "The Unbearable Lightness of Being," that being the case when that bag looks real damn light. I know you take your cut from what comes through, but come the fuck on! This is just getting insulting.

Episode 5 - "30 Minutes or Less" Deliver, muthafukka, deliver!!!! I'll even pay extra for the service. Really.

Episode 6 (Also to be aired on Lifetime, WE and/or Oxygen Networks) - "Back Up Off Me" If we didn't hang out before our business relationship, odds are we ain't gonna hang out now. Don't call me asking me if I've been thinking about you. Unless I want your product, the answer is prolly going to be no. I'd prefer not to lie, so please don't ask me. It's a bad scene for us both.

Episode 7 - "The Man Sitting Next to the Man" Introduce me to your supplier. You're cool and all, but somehow I'm thinking meeting the next guy up the totem pole will really serve me better, especially when you're mysteriously unavailable (see Episodes 1 and 2 respectively)

Please feel free edit, add or comment as the feeling moves you.Their reply was:

Man, I know this is a joke, but I feel ya on Episode 2. I want to get high and enjoy the rest of the NIGHT, not the day time when I just want to sleep. I will even pay for your gas money if that is your fucking damn excuse.

Random story time now.

A year or so ago I went through a friend to pick up some shrooms. Turns out the guy was back in the T.dot and did not want to come down to where I was for only a half quarter. So I tell him I will up it to an ounce as well I have to pay for his train ticket (Yes, this desperate)just so that he will come down. So he says alright.

Call him 1 hour later, says he's still at his buddies house he will call me when he gets on the train.

4 hours pass, I call him again, says he's just calling a cab to get the the train.

2 hours pass, he finally arrives and calls me. I pick up and me and my friend immediately wolf down a GOOD 10grams.

2 hours pass and I'm on the phone with him telling him he's a worthless fraud and that if I ever see him again I will kick his ass. Mother fucker sold me shit that didn't even work.

Can we make a series where customers get back at shitty dealers? I dunno maybe like a prank thing but way harsher.

liar huhn

2008-05-17T16:10:39Z

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It could have happened to any neat freak...

2008-05-17T16:01:32Z

I don't appreciate the way the story is being told. Given that I was in my bedroom, which is generally impeccably neat and the laundry room was on the other side of the house and I had spilled my sack on the bed, why wouldn't I snort it? Well, yes it did seem a bit soapy; that's why I called my ex to see if his tasted soapy as well. Sheer logic. Why would I think my ex would have made a bed ever so perfectly with a comforter filled with tide? And no I did not see the blue crystals in the Tide! The room was dark, and my vision is no longer 20/20 due to...due to...reading too much, yeah, that's it.

And this time FYI, I smelled it first. Empirical sense knowledge out-weighed Rationality.

okay so what if my nose burns

2008-05-16T23:49:19Z

You know you are a J when....You scream and yell at your alcoholic bf for drinking up all the money you had plans to snort!